Friday, December 28th, 2007
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6:37 pm
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i used to be a much better person
i used to be nice
i used to fall for girls all the time and get my heartbroken
i used to love them with my heartbroken and still be their friend
i used to be confident that even though they would not have me that i would be good for them
i used to be good
i dont know what happened
i guess life happened
ive changed a lot
too bad people dont come with factory reset buttons
i think i was only apealing during my transition from nice guy to asshole
i was not apealing as a nice guy and im not apealing now but inbetween i fell into some strange hole where women are actually attracted to you
weird right?
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Friday, December 15th, 2006
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3:02 pm
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i got a new computer arent you all excited its amazing
its so fast and shinny
its my new child
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Friday, December 8th, 2006
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1:21 pm
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i just saw a sign in the art wing that says
"friends dont let friends become performing art majors"
i thought it was funny so i am sharing
now off to entertain myself till its time to cut ethics
lol cut ethics
lol
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Thursday, October 26th, 2006
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2:15 pm
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i dont update much anymore i know
so ive made some mistakes and ive made my situation worse
i dont know if i can fix things but i continue to hold out hope
hope what a foolish childish idea i cling to in these times
i used to be hard and cold strong and reliant
what have i become?
and how much further am i willing to go to get what i want?
and i think the answer is that there is no limit
i would do anything
i will do everything
with or without help
roses chocolates
razor blades and fire
these are a few of my favorite things
anyway more to come later
public?
i dont know why but it is
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Sunday, March 12th, 2006
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5:22 am
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I think that what I need to do with my life is start saying what Im thinking.
I dont really do that. I tend to bite my tongue because if you have nothing nice to say... well you know the rest.
I think its going to get me in a lot of drama/fights/arguments but I dont think it matters I dont really have any thing to lose and I havent been very happy lately so maybe it will make life happier.
I am not sleeping again.... which should be easy to guess based on the time.
I am house sitting for my mother.
I leave for florida on monday and I get back on thursday.
I do very much need some time off from the theatre well not the theatre but the generic stress revolving around the theatre (people)
the sun is coming up im going to go sit outside for a while
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Thursday, January 12th, 2006
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9:40 am - lol like i could stop myself
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SCORPIO (Oct. 23–Nov. 21): Widely regarded as a top military historian, Martin van Creveld has written books that have been influential in shaping modern theories of warfare. The U.S. Army makes his work required reading for its officers. That's why it was so remarkable when he described America's invasion of Iraq in 2003 as "the most foolish war since Emperor Augustus in 9 B.C. sent his legions into Germany and lost them." I urge you to regularly imitate Creveld's example in 2006, Scorpio: Speak out in dramatic fashion against the follies that your expertise gives you the right to critique. Drawing on your special experience and knowledge, make rigorous evaluations of the authorities and institutions whose decisions affect your life.
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Sunday, October 16th, 2005
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5:31 pm
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Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
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2:22 pm
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Thursday, September 15th, 2005
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9:14 pm
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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
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12:08 am
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doom dooom doooooom dooooooom doooooooom
the end
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Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
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3:38 pm
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dentist round 2
valuim my friend
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Thursday, July 7th, 2005
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7:51 am
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so i survived the dentist via valium which made me very sleepy the dentist thought i was funny i think i was smiling or something the whole time and i kept falling asleep they had to keep telling me to open my mouth
what i learned is valium is my friend
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Friday, June 17th, 2005
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12:09 pm
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im going back to ri till wed give me a call if you wanna hang out
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Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
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11:40 am
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You Are 29 Years Old |
29
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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Friday, May 27th, 2005
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9:16 pm
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
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Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
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9:15 am
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do you ever wish you could change someone's first impression of you?
i've been getting a lot of mixed feelings about a lot of stuff recently and a lot of people wanting a variety of different things from me most of which i am not inclined to provide
sometimes i wish i could understand how other people think because sometimes somedays the way i think makes it incredibly hard to even try to get out of bed no less do something with my life
and i am remembering now how in high school i used to think "i want you to want me" now i find myself saying "i only know when they want me"
i used to be ignored tollerated just flying under the radar no one knowing i existed and now i feel that people are forced to egnknowlege my existance on a regular basis and i just want to be invisible again
and i find this longing strange and ubsurd
i just wish i was better at this thing we call life
i just miss having problems so simple that i could voice them without worry of offending or without actually being the bad guy
which by the way i am
i feel like my life is due for renovation
but i guess that happens every 2 to 3 years i go through an angsty crisis where i throw everything out and start again
maybe ill make it through another year before i do
maybe i wont
i think more than anything i miss my ignorance and the ignoarance of those around me
nothing is quite as terribly as knowing
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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12:04 am
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sorry about logging ip addresses my settings all reset for some reason?
i fixed it
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Monday, April 4th, 2005
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11:42 pm
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Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously. Anything. . .a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love. . .anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then put this in your livejournal to see what your friends have to say.
i have screened anonymous comments because even if you leave me a secret i might now want everyone to read it and neither may you
current mood:  thoughtful
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Thursday, December 30th, 2004
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6:39 pm
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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9:58 pm
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this is a general anouncement
my journal is locked
this entry is not
if you want to read my journal tell me and add me
i will add you back and you will be able to read this
if you delete me from your friends i will delete you
nothing personal but if you dont trust me to read your locked entries than i dont trust you
this is a universal policy with no exceptions
sorry
thats life
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